sekadar preparation result jpa

based on bidom told me, the JPA scholars result will come out on the day after tomorrow, this friday. if anyone ask me, of course la im really want the scolarship. furthermore i want to further my study in medic course and i think my family cant afford the total cost of the study for that course, and thats the only way i must get to lessen my parents burden besides can be a role model to my younger sisters and brothers. cececeh...
but honestly im felt less confident to get the shcolarship. maybe the interview i had gone through was not really good enough. i think i can do better than that. yelah, i tried to do my best but it seemed like it was simple and too humble. haha, but its ok pe. but if compared to all the chinese candidates like there is no more chances for me and for all the malays. luckily the quota for bumi and nonbumi is 51:49...
and unfortunately the competition are really strong, we need to compete with 8000 candidates whereas the to be chosen is only about 1000. lol..

''pray for the best, prepare for the worst''

so, before the result come out, i just want to make some preparation to face the 'unwanted fate'.
hurm, apa ya? ok lah, kan better if i consider that if im not destined for jpa scholar means it's not the best for me, becoz i had prayed and always pray to get the scholarship but if tak dapat, maknanya mestilah ada sesuatu yang lebih baik buat aku, bak kata ibnu qayyim, Allah sentiasa mengabulkan doa kita, cuma cara doa termakbul bukan mengikut kehendak kita tapi ikut cara yang Allah kehendaki since Allah is The Most Wisdom so He knows the best for us right :p Allah is the best Planner!!!
second i will consider (kalau tak dapat) that it was just a test from my Lord for me so that i will become more patient, since like ustaz kazim said, ujian dan musibah yang diturunkan oleh Allah hanyalah sebagai alat untuk meningkatkan darjat kita di sisiNya selagi kita reda dan sabar dengan musibah tersebut. sometimes due to this statement i feel like im left behind becoz recently i dont know what incidents i could called it as musibah. :(

time tengah menaip ni tadi, tiba2 abuya panggil, then abuya tanya, 

''kenapa laptop abuya takleh connect kat wireless, dah setengah jam 

abuya try2 tak dapat connect, cuba bada tengok2 sikit''

dalam masa satu saat je aku da nampak kenapa laptop tu takleh connect, then aku cakap,

''cuba abuya tekan button wireless tu, tak on la'' 

then abuya kata,

 ''ouh, abuya lupa plak tadi abuya teroff kan''

the end, 

haha, buat lawak plak abuya ni,,rupa2nya tu je..

by the way, actually aku cam tak kisah sangat pun pergi oversea atau tak, dapat local pun ok, asalkan dapat sholarship, tapi kalau tak dapat shcolarship tak bermakna cita2 aku takkan tercapai. kalau dapat asasi pun aku dah bersyukur sangat2 dah, tak mustahil aku akan jadi lebih happy dari dapat oversea. why not since kat local ni dekat dengan family and Malaysia ni kan negara islam...
pendek kata, kat mana tu nnt aku tawakal penuh je pada Allah, since aku dah doa dan aku yakin apa2 pun jawapan dariNya nanti actually itulah yang terbaik untuk aku.
teringat pesanan seorang sahabat masa aku beritahu aku ingin jadi doktor sebab family so dia pesan, minat saja tak cukup, mesti buat kerana Allah nescaya Allah akan bantu kita.


The power of doa will gives a miracle to our life, so perbanyakkan berdoa.

Ya Allah, 

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