Wednesday, April 26, 2017

WHERE IT ALL STARTED

I don't know who is this but has someone told you- don't ask an OP about his experience in RMC he can give a full-night-chat with you. Mat-claim-mood ( bajet2) to the max hahha XD We have something which when budak2 SBP cerita pasal their junior life, we were like- duhhh, tu jee. haha. Lets have a coffee talk somewhere :) should we? coz obviously you are an akhi? or...hm

This is an honorable yet emotional question for any OP, please don't ask. huu. but i'm gonna tell you anyway. ahha.

Why RMC ?

I used to tell people i entered RMC because of my father. It was a micro-reason actually, but still big one lah. And it was 1-sec answer to end the Q&A. No one wants to listen to ur story unless u are millionare or dying. The reason i gambled to enter RMC was......i wanted to become SOMEONE. I wanted to change my life!
Back then my friends discouraged me. Someone who i used to call best friend laughed at me when i told him i wanted to enter RMC & I still remember he said, "kau ni jentik pun dah melayang" during our way to canteen. My class teacher once told my father, boleh ke Ubadah ni masuk RMC? Sya rasa dia tak mampu..
i wasn't a bright student except in academic. I was the boy people said its kiamat if he's saying something harsh. I was the boy who was mocked by girls of his batch even outside school. I was the boy who was helpless when insulted by juniors. I was the boy who was rejected by his crush in front of his classmates like he was a trash XD huuhu

I wanted to change my life!!

Know what, my idol was Salahuddin Ayubi. I wanted to become as great as Salahuddin Ayubi. I read abt him (it was first novel i read) & i see my life was far behind compared to him.

So there I put myself- into RMC. Home of Future Leaders. Where boys turn into men. It's what people said. I had no idea whats it is like inside RMC. All i know was the 2 years journey will change the rest of my life. There will no turning back. No U-turn.
Yeah, i had lot of breakdowns back then in RMC. Fews are still fresh & emotional to recall. Those moments i prayed for strength, through weakness i learnt we need God. The moment i almost give up...


To enter RMC you have to go thru a 1-week-interview. I ran everyday befroe the interview to make sure i'm fit enough XD There are few criterias tested- medical check up, IQ, leadership, physical test & interview by officers. Each day there was elimination stage. Alhamdulillah i passed the interview. Then the praying drama started. I prayed so much to enter RMC. I didn't deserved, i wasn't lucky, BUT i prayedd & worked hard.. only Allah knows :) alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah 23.01.2009 where it all began. I was put into Foxtrot Company. We were initially 32 people. Throughout 2 years only 27 of my squad made till POP. My batchmate also were 260+ in the beginning, then throughout the first 7 months +-50 boys quitted, equivalent to 20% reduction.
I need to tell abt the survival rate because in RMC the purpose of ragging & drill according to my senior, are to BUILD A MAN & eliminate those who are unfit mentally. I'm proud to say that i survived. The proud is the driving force for any OP to face all forthcoming in life. I'm just straight to the point. The seniors everytime right after they ragged & drilled us, they will do compensation or we called it brainwashing. They will bagi ceramah & always said that when the going get tough, the tough get going. Exactly

434418 PK Mohammad Ubadah

In RMC we were called Buday Boy. There are only two type of RMC Boys- Newboy (junior) & Senior Putera (SP). Eventho we are only 1 year apart, newboys have to call SP as Sir. Its master-servant relation. Newboys have to respect & obey SP so much, otherwise you will be 'targetted' till you quit. Until my batch, SP have autorithy on their Newboys on how they gonna 'build' and train them using their tradition. Now i heard Newboy & SP are seperated which bring a big BIG changes to the traditions. Really?? Who would tell the Newboys- tiada yang tak boleh!

This is my squad- Royal Fox. :) We are still keeping in touch. Some are married.
Sentiasa Berusaha is F-coy motto. I still & will continue to uphold this principle till the end.

I got my second name on first day tho- Tikus. Then a kind-hearted yet influenceful senior, convinced his squad to call me Mice instead bcoz mice sounds nicer. Don't ask why tikus, it is obviously. XD And thats the reason why i'm somehow so obsessed with mouse. hehhe

<:3  )~~

The Newboy year was really tough esp the first 6 months. I'm not sure hows the remaining 6 months but i'm sure everyone got tough dy. It was just get easier. Newboy year is the phase where we the bloodbrother-bonding built and uphold the Newboy principle, "Takde yang tak boleh". Newboys never walk, Newboys run- said seniors. During this year, you will be treated like a servant. You are the washing machine, you are the mesin urut, you are the postmen, you are the typewriter, and the list goes on, which some names are worse than that i can't mention it here. And favor the military-style principle, the motto One for All, All for One. If something happens to your squad, you will be taken charge too. You will be punished for others' fault. Altogether. But this is how the seniors taught the meaning of brotherhood, go correct your friend & help them if they aren't capable. We live for each other. We are ONE.

Tiada yang tak boleh! esp when you have a team

During the Newboy year, your mental strength will be tested. Your physical strength will be strengthened. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. This is how RMC traditions work. Budak Boy don't bully, instead, we build men. Bully is soo bad, please don't bully. And don't confuse ragging with bully. Budak Boy ragging. Even somehow the raggings are too much (and i strongly disagree)...to name a few yang pelik2 such as hammerlight, komando rest & others. But the raggings are mostly constructive. Military style.
No ragging, no RMC la.

Foxtrot Compeny in 2009. My senior squad was FoxCrew, they were 21 person.

Still a lot to share but i need to stop now, tomorrow got Vasili class oh. Maybe i spare those for next writing & sharing but let see how. Hopefully i will get the mood to recall the memory again. Thanks for asking somehow its good to write and remember old memories. :') it's nostalgic yet emotional to reminisce.

Serve to Lead.

In order to lead, you have to serve.
#sentiasaberusaha

*sorry for all the boastings...i should compensate it with something hha

Sunday, April 16, 2017

SHINGEKU NO KYOJIN

Baca manga/ anime ni banyak pengajaran yang kita boleh dapat. Tapi adakah kita betul2 mempraktikkannya atau sekadar baca suka2?

Cth dalam anime Shingeku no kyojin..baru tengok sambungan dia hehe...Letakkan diri di hadapan kemanusiaan. Meski terpaksa mengorbankan diri & impian. Bukankah itu inspirasi?


Dalam realiti, ada juga kemanusiaan..
Di syria kanak-kanak dibunuh tanpa ada reaksi dunia
Di rohingya bangsanya dihalau, atau dihapus
Di somalia kebuluran & penyakit yang menunggu ajal
Bahkan di tempat kita sendiri, homeless, underpriviledged students, orang miskin, mangsa banjir,etc...

Kalau tak mampu mulakan, join la platform-platform lain azam, bpln, msa, perantau cakna, small changes, kalsom movement, ikram (mycare, islamic relief), rohingya center, projek iqra etc etc

Tak rugi pun join, personally sya rasa bila jumpa aktivis2 lain, kita akan rasa selama ni kita tak buat apa2 pun...

Tak perlu jadi Survey Corp pun,,jadilah muslim yang bermanfaat


Kalau kita baca suka2, then rugi lah

Rugi.





Wednesday, April 12, 2017

GENERAL ANAESTHESIA

Apa khabar?

Soalan yang biasa..tapi apa kata sekali sekala kita kembangkan

Apa khabar badan, sihat? Apa khabar iman, basah ? apa khabar rakan di sebelah? apa khabar roomate, housemate? apa khabar groupmates? Apa khabar mak ayah? Apa khabar jiran? Semua sihat? Ada yang demam? sakit-sakit badan? Moga cepat sembuh. Sakit hati? whatsapp

Nak lagi spesifik?

Apa khabar tangan? Apa khabar kaki? Apa khabar perut, dah terisi belum? Apa khabar tekak, dah minum? Apa khabar emosi? Gosok gigi? cheeseee hhe.. Apa khabar mental & fizikal hari ni? Apa khabar peha kanan bila cubit peha kiri? Apa khabar selera makan apabila satu tubuh demam?

tetapi kalau cubit peha kiri, peha kanan tidak terasa apa...lantaran kita ni dibius apa?

Kau orang faham apa maksud saya?

Apa khabar dunia? Moga baik-baik saja
"Sebenarnya seluruh orang mukmin itu adalah bersaudara." (al-Hujarat ayat 10)

MENELADANI MERPATI

Lain org, lain caranya melihat dan mentadabbur segala yg berlaku di sekeliling kita.

Kita ambil contoh merpati. 

Kalau orang lapar, nampak merpati macam BBQ atau Kazan Kebab (lama tak jumpa Bakhtiar hhu). Kalau aktivis alam sekitar, nampak merpati ni simbol keamanan, simbol cinta, simbol kebebasan. Kalau Galena Felixovna ( sementara cycle infectious masih freshh) mungkin nampak merpati ni beliau ingat pasal ornithosis atau ptitsacosis. 
Lain orang lain cara mereka menterjemahkan sesuatu. Semua berbalik kepada ilmu & didikan mereka macam mana. Kita yang dididik dengan islam sejak bangku sekolah, plus point ditarbiyyah dengan usrah yang berantai setiap minggu, harus belajar melihat melalui kaca mata islam (quran & sunnah). Hakimnya Allah dan Rasul. Harus ada kaca mata itu. :)

1- Allah Maha Pemberi Rezeki
Ada hadis (nanti sya paste di bawah) bahawa Allah menggunakan analogi BURUNG untuk Dia 'memperkenalkan' Dirinya kepada kita, salah satu namaNya- ArRazzaq. Maha Pemberi Rezeki. Hamba mana yang tak gembira bila tuannya perkenalkan diri sebagai orang paling kaya tapi paling pemurah. ;)

2- tawakal
Juga dalam hadis yang sama. Di sini ada mesej penting, iaitu tawakal bukan bermakna kita tak buat apa-apa. Burung tahu ada Sang Pemberi Rezeki, namun burung tetap terbang ke sana ke mari untuk mencari rezeki. Kita, jangan nak beralasan tawakal selagi belum berusaha sehabis mampu. Lepas tu baru berdoa. Biasa dengar kan usaha, doa, tawakal. ;)

3- si burung kecil
Dalam kisah lain kita meneladani semangat si burung pipit kecil untuk memadamkan api yang membakar Nabi Ibrahim. Bila di-mapuh dia menjawab, usaha kecilnya itu adalah jawapan untuk soalan "apa yg kamu dah lakukan utk islam?"  

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Dari Umar bin Al Khoththob radhiyallahu ‘anhu, Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda,

لَوْ أَنَّكُمْ تَتَوَكَّلُونَ عَلَى اللَّهِ حَقَّ تَوَكُّلِهِ لَرَزَقَكُمْ كَمَا يَرْزُقُ الطَّيْرَ تَغْدُو خِمَاصاً وَتَرُوحُ بِطَاناً
”Seandainya kalian betul-betul bertawakkal pada Allah, sungguh Allah akan memberikan kalian rizki sebagaimana burung mendapatkan rizki. Burung tersebut pergi pada pagi hari dalam keadaan lapar dan kembali sore harinya dalam keadaan kenyang.”
HR. Ahmad (1/30), Tirmidzi no. 2344, Ibnu Majah no. 4164, dan Ibnu Hibban no. 402

**makanan burung dah nak habis. kena beli baru!

#sentiasaberusaha

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Aku & Sukan


Today i went jogging. I took 35+minutes to complete 6km, around 6min/km which is very slow & weak!! 1 more km i am a dead man haha...pancit gler..ye la after almost 3 years of no jog. So to say lah to comfort myself haha. But back then i could run 1.6km in only 3minutes! Now I'm getting older & became unfit. How can i run for Dyen Pabedi Marathon soon. *sigh* I cannot lose to anybody, at least to Malaysians, i'am an OP ! Hahha. We run all the time in camp's life haha..

Hi..actually there is something i've been longing to say.. about SPORT

Soon there will be Intervarsity Games for Malaysian Students in Russia. And this feeling strucks me. Everytime the event comes. I hate it. Really hate it and i even googled abt it. Feeling of USELESSNESS & NOTHINGNESS. Im not the only one tho but all the answers in google werent motivating at all instead, degrading. Idk why this kind of feeling exists. But maybe im too disappointed with myself. I played sport since primary 6 and tried many games;

+football. i played with neighboors on daily basis till form 2 (2005-07), my house was only 20 seconds walking to the padang bola. Still kaki bangku till now

+pingpong. I trained with my friends every weeks for months, and even represented my rumah sukan in tournament in 2008. Kalah for sure.

+Taekwondo. I participated in taekwondo tournament. We trained hard 3x oer week..at night somemore. I was a shine during training but when it come to the sparring day, i was a disappointment. I still remembet the face of my voavh that day

+hockey. I played with few friends (twin friends) and they taught me too and they were captain for their team ( peringkat daerah). They taught me many time how to dribble, etc but i seems cannot. In rmc, i joined hockey team training.

+basketball. I play this game almost everyday in rmc but still far from good.

+Boxing. I joined twice. This was long story tho but nice experience

+takraw. I attended all weekend trainings and represented vsmu for takraw. I even practice alone sometimes during weekdays. in Kursk, we managed to won 1 game, but lost 3. Guess what, the game that we won was the game i didnt play at all. HAHA

They are still in my <3 my first sport team

+Handball n fridbee. I attended the weekend training and i loved and committed to it, but aftr 6-7th training, those who come for the 1st time can play much better than me. whattt. haha..i was demotivated to the lowest ground..to marianna trench deep haha

+in RMC, you must go for jog or sport from 4.30-6.30pm...see i played sports...i dedicated a lot of my time for sports.

But still..

a. failure.

I tried everything..i trained but i notice theres NO improvement at all. I feel so stupid on field. Macam badut. Macam orang bodoh. Im not helpful, my presence is nothing to team. I got blurred when i get the ball. Im just bad at sports. Very bad. Worse, im the black sheep in my team when it comes to sport. Im the reason for the defeats. It makes me feel guilty all the time

All the athletes got my jealousy. Im jealous to those who can play sport. Somehow i hatee them huhuhu.. Why i am telling this..

Now some people even asked me uba tak pergi ke Moscow Games, but when i say no their (so far 3 person) reply was, then siapa nak ambil gambar kitorang?
This brings back to the feeling after Kursk Games 2015, 2 weeks after the game, a senior posted in fb and tagged me in a post saying tazzabar (yes its spelled this way) nak tunggu uba upload gambar. In other word- uba cepatlah upload gambar! I was busy that time, final pre-clinical year, the most busy year for med students. Which led to a concern from a friend of mine;

I know u love photography but u hv to know la, spend time to take pics of stuffs that u prefer more
Coz u knw there r ppl who take u as camera n rmbr u only whn they need u to take their pics
Just like what happened to u during the Kursk trip. So I just wanna tell u that sometimes u shall consider ur own privilege and hobby as ur priority first
But I just dun wan to see u being taken advantage by others

That was just two story, and i can tell few others to relate but thats it la kot.

Just when i thought i was part of them, can contribute & be useful, was the day i was 'told' that i was being used

irony

Monday, April 3, 2017

#sentiasaberusaha

Kadang kita rasa segala-galanya berjalan dengan baik, lancar dan mantap. Kita kerahkan seluruh fikiran, kudrat & masa untuk dakwah, demi keberhasilan. Namun sebaliknya Allah uji dakwah kita dengan kelemahan diri kita sendiri. Satu satu masalah timbul. Nak biarkan damage sedalam apa lagi?
Nak kata sebenarnya keberhasilan hanya datang daripada Allah. Kemudian barulah bantuan Allah yang hadir dengan cara yang tak disangka. Kita berusaha sehabis mampu pom tapi kalau Allah tak izinkan, maka benda takkan jadi.
Begitu juga dengan 'amal-amal' kita, betulkan layak disebut amal? atau sekadar kerja sahaja. Hanya Allah yang layak mengatakan ia adalah amal.

Namun, ia tidak mematahkan semangat kita sebagai jundi untuk terus berusaha. Ia adalah trust process dengan Allah.

Mengambil inspirasi baginda saw, dakwah di Mekah hingga ke Taif diperlakukan persis binatang namun titik tolak keberhasilan hanya apabila dikunjung 6 ansori yang tanpa diduga, ingin berbaiah..itulah contoh keberhasilan hanya dengan izin Allah. Tugas kita hanya menyampaikan-bukan berkuasa...surah Ghasiyah ayat 21-22

Berusahalah untuk terus menyampaikan kebaikan

Berusahalah agar terus terpilih.

Berusahalah sehabis mampu hingga yang tersisa hanya kata kata,
'ya Allah, aku dah cuba sepenuh daya'

bagi kita yang menuju Dia, harus merasakan detik itu menggugahgerak emosi


Ramai yang hebat bila mengawal dakwah, tetapi ramai yang kecundang bila dakwah mula mengawal hidupnya

akhi, sentiasa berusaha